A transgender woman who underwent a vaginoplasty to have her penis turned into a vagina has described in graphic detail what the process was really like.
Jessica, who identifies as a queer woman, had already started hormone replacement therapy and gone all the way to South Korea to have vocal chord surgery to transform her baritone voice when she decided to have a breast augmentation surgery and a vaginoplasty in one operation.
After her vaginoplasty, which she had near her home in East Bay Area, California, she warned 'there are going to be parts of you that are going to melt off' in an interview with Truth Speak Project.
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Jessica, whose partner was also born male and had already had the surgery, said there were elements of her recovery that she was not warned about by doctors, adding that it was 'really scary'.
She said: 'There are going to be parts of you that are going to melt off...It is really scary. But it’s also perfectly normal and most people recover from that completely as if nothing has happened.
'Basically the furniture down there gets rearranged during the surgery. One of the many things I learned along this journey is that male genitalia and female genitalia aren’t that different. They’re arranged differently, but the individual parts are really similar.
'So vaginoplasty consists of a re-positioning and folding of all these tissues using the existing tissues.
'When that’s done, some of the tissues might not get as much blood flow as they did before, so they get starved of nutrients and oxygen.
'That’s when the surface tissue tends to die off — which is as gross as it sounds. It is really really awful.'
Warning: Jessica, who was born male, said: 'There are going to be parts of you that melt off' after surgery (medical diagram shown)
Although Jessica said she was expecting her vagina to 'look like Frankenp***y' after surgery, it was much worse that she could have imagined.
At one point she claims she thought she was 'dying'.
'It’s red, there’s stitches and it’s swollen, you can see the stitch lines. You expect that,' she said.
'What you don’t expect is this yellow-y, clumpy, almost mucus-y, looks-like-someone-sneezed-on-your-p***y kind of residue.
'So you might have a chunk of your inner labia just die off, just fall off, and it’ll just grow right back. It’s hard to believe because when you lose a limb or a toe it doesn’t grow back. But it turns out that your p***y does. It’s strange.
'And it’s gross and it’s funky and it’s awful and you think, "Oh my god, What is happening? My p***y is melting. I’m dying." But it turns out that it is perfectly normal.'
She said doctors should better prepare patients for what will happen following the surgery.
'It’s something doctors should tell patients beforehand. Because you’re already dealing with so many changes, working with so many geographic changes on your body.
Healing: She said she had anticipated her vagina looking 'like Frankenp***y' after surgery, pictured in diagram, but said it was much worse than she expected (medical diagram shown)
'Your clitoris, which used to be the head of your penis, is positioned in a completely different way,' she said.
In the early days after the operation, Jessica said there were occasions when she thought she still had male genitalia.
She said: 'There were times early on when I felt like I could feel my penis. I figured out what was going on though.
'Basically, my clit was telling me that it was still the head of my penis, that the most sensitive part of it was still there. It took a lot of adjusting and it was pretty weird at first.'
She said she has shown her new sexual organs to cisgender females who have told her the surgeon 'did a great job'.
Jessica said she has a G-spot and that she has had orgasms - but they are 'very different' to what she experienced before surgery.
She said: 'I do have a G-spot. In fact, I still have a prostate, even though it’s much smaller than it was because of hormone replacement therapy. But it’s still there and it can still be stimulated. It’s still very enjoyable...
'Orgasms are very different. Oh my goodness. They were different even before my surgery after I started hormone replacement therapy. That’s when I started having more full-body orgasms.
Icon: Transgender actress Laverne Cox, 31, left, has previously said she was pleased she could undergo gender reassignment in private; transgender model Andreja Pejic, right, also underwent the procedure in 2014
'The sensation wasn’t just concentrated immediately around my genitals anymore. It was more like waves of pleasure throughout my body.
'So that started happening with just hormones. But then, of course, the surgery changes everything.'
She added: 'I didn’t think that I would get such good results from my surgery but there they are.
'I definitely experience internal stimulation orgasms and they are different from the orgasms I get from clitoral stimulation.
'They’re deeper and they’re more intense — always gush from internal orgasms.'
She said the development of surgery has made experiences for people undergoing the procedure 'a lot better' in the last decade.
She added: 'Some things are different for trans feminine people who had their surgery ten years ago.
'Doctors have gotten to a point now where they can make a vagina that allows you to come and really gush from internal vaginal stimulation just like a cis-gendered woman does, if that’s something that you’re capable of doing.'
Jessica paid for her breast augmentation herself but the vaginoplasty was covered by her insurance as required by California law after a doctor said it was medically needed.
Despite having done so herself, Jessica warned against having both surgeries in one operation.
'I woke up in the recovery room in a world of pain, unable to move,' she said. 'I really underestimated how much the recovery from breast augmentation takes out of you.'
She said she opted for a full vaginal canal because she wanted to experience penetrative sex and to 'relate to cis-gendered women'.
Content: Jessica said she is pleased with the surgery, pictured above, and said since then she has found she has a G-spot and has had orgasms
Progress: Jessica said vaginoplasty surgery, pictured in diagram, has developed considerably over last decade
She added: 'I had to wear a pad every day and I get it. The struggle is real...I have this newfound respect and empathy for my fellow sisters. I get it now...
'I just had my first p-in-v sex as a vagina-haver and it was different from what I expected. It was more intense than I expected.
'I had gotten used to the process of dilating my vagina, which I do with a medical phallus one to two times a day, to keep the new vagina from closing up.
'I’ve been doing that for 9.5 months since my surgery. So having something in my vagina is a normal sensation for me because I experience it every day.
'There are going to be parts of you that are going to melt off... It is really scary. But it’s also perfectly normal
Jessica, transgender woman
'But having a person inside my vagina was a relatively new experience for me. I’ve had fingers but I’ve never had a penis.
'It was a little overwhelming, but it was pleasant and fun and I would totally do it again. The person I had sex with was a preoperative trans woman.'
Transgender model Andreja Pejic underwent gender-reassignment surgery, also known as gender-reconfirmation surgery, in 2014.
Talking about the decision last year the Bosnian model told Vogue: 'Society doesn't tell you that you can be trans. I thought about being gay, but it didn't fit…
'I thought, well, maybe this is just something you like to imagine sometimes'.
Orange Is The New Black star Laverne Cox said she does not like the focus on gender reassignment surgery - saying she is 'grateful' she could have gender reassignment surgery in 'private' unlike Caitlyn Jenner.
The transgender actress told Entertainment Weekly last year: 'I’m so grateful that I had the luxury of transitioning in private because when you transition in the public eye, the transition becomes the story.
'I’m always disturbed when I see conversations about trans people that focus on surgery. But I believe Caitlyn will transcend this moment.'
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1And Now You Must Adjust To Your Brand-New Genitalia
1And Now You Must Adjust To Your Brand-New Genitalia
When you get a new sex organ a couple decades into life, it takes some getting used to. "Just peeing was a whole new experience. I've always sat down to pee, but I still sometimes reach down to shake it off. It's the force of habit that's hard to, well, shake. A potentially embarrassing aspect is having to recalibrate your sense of bathroom timing; when I have to go now I'd better go! This has gotten a little better with time as my muscles get used to it, but I had some near-misses."
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And, of course, having a new fuck-zone makes that whole aspect of your life quite different. "But after being over the 'new' part of it, it feels natural in a way it never did before. I wasn't joking earlier about wanting to cry after sex; it never felt right, and it created a wall between me and anyone I was intimate with." And note that there are a few differences between a surgery-built vagina and one that just grows in the traditional way. Namely, lubrication. "What male bodies obviously don't grow are lubricating ducts for the vaginal wall. After surgery, you'll always need lube for sex, and with the aftercare being what it is I feel I should get a sponsorship from Durex."
Or at least a "sixth one free" punch card.
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Nora didn't view her surgery as just transitioning from a penis to a vagina. "I went from nothing to something, from not having a vagina to having one. I never felt like I had genitalia of my own before; the thing was just there, it didn't belong to me. It was a cruel joke. I couldn't even talk about it in terms like 'my penis'; it was 'that thing.' Now I do have private parts, and it's liberating and empowering. It's not been all that long and already I can hardly remember what it felt like, physically, to have that other thing."
This actually hits on a major misconception people have about transgender people, viewing them as men who want to be women. Nora says, "I wasn't a boy who wanted to be a girl. I was an unhappy girl who wanted to be a happy one. Without understanding that, having an understanding of transsexuality is not possible. I have ambitions now, motivations; I enjoy life, and I enjoy people. The surgery didn't magically make me happy, but it took away a lot of barriers and allowed me to work towards the life I want for myself, just like anyone else."
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Surgery below the belt; results above the shoulders.
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Now, we're not trying to publish an advertisement for gender reassignment surgery here. There is very little long-term data on the effects. The best evidence we have suggests it does have a positive mental health impact on most patients (weirdly enough, results tend to be better for people who transition from female to male than male to female -- nobody knows why), but gender reassignment patients do still have an elevated suicide risk compared to the general population. Not just because patients still face a stigma (again, you're having to explain this to every single person in your life) but because gender identity issues have so dominated their lives that they're not sure how to move on.
"Many -- too many -- people get post-operative depression. Not because they regret it but because they've spent so much time and effort into working towards it that when it's over they have little left going on." That, by the way, was why the counselors kept prodding her about her career and life goals. "The clinic wants to know there is more to your life than transition, because when it's all your life is about it can be a red flag." You spend your youth wishing you could live your life as a woman, but once you accomplish that goal, you then have to actually go out and live your life as a woman. That's not the end of a story -- it's the beginning of one.
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